Sunset (July 9, 2009)

Thought of the Day: I love sunsets. The thing about sunsets is they are so fleeting. If you're not having your camera, you will most likely fail to capture that moment. I guess the same goes for most of the other important moments in life.

It's always easier to tell other people to do the right thing. But not so with yourself. I've been so lethargic lately. My mind is as hazy as the one enveloping Seremban right now.

Where oh where, is the rain that will come and wash away this shroud of laziness?
Yawn.

Nature's Packages

Lessons from Life: Never just stick to one way of doing things. If you do, you'll never find out if there's a better way.

Bananas must be one of nature's best fruits. So convenient. So tasty. And comes with its own packaging. Well, I only just discovered that the dragon fruit can be peeled too. (*Blush)

Are you a Learner or a Whiner?

Thoughts for today: I'm very, very happy in church on Sunday. I'm trying to teach guitar to this huge group of people in church. Although we have communication difficulties due to language barriers but a majority of them have improved by leaps and bounds due to their enthusiasm plus their willingness to listen and learn. It's such a joy to teach them. Which brings me to today's post:

Honestly, I don't think I'm such a great teacher.

Although I'm not particularly fond of teaching but when I have decided to do it, I will give my all BUT I expect equal effort in return. Hence, I have little patience with whiners.

Who are whiners, you may ask?

• They don't listen but they try to dictate how you should teach them
  
• They don't practice but they come well prepared to feed you with a list of excuses
  
• They hardly focusing on learning, improving and working around their weaknesses. Instead they focus on the pain, the hardship and their self imposed weakness like age, lack of talent, bla bla bla. (You name it!)
• They always take correction the wrong way: defensively and as a personal attack. How do you grow like that?
  

Usually in my experience, people who are well to do and blessed with plenty are good whiners.

Basically, whiners whine and learners learn.

Passion for Passion Fruit

Thoughts to Ponder: Children will take after their parents whether they are or aren't aware of it.

I never did think that I would be a person to take an interest in anything remotely related to gardening. In fact I once nearly let the whole garden dry up. Laziness... I know...

But sometime last year, I decided to discipline myself to at least water the garden regularly. Why the change of heart? Does it have anything to do with old age? I hope not.

Strangely in the course of this mundane and mosquito-feeding exercise, I find myself excited when plants bloom and bear fruit. I began to take an interest in specific plants in the garden: chili, mint, dragon fruits and the focus of this post: the passion fruit.

Originally, there were two young stunted plants in the garden. My friend gave me a seedling from Cameron Highlands as well, but that plant didn't last long. After months of staring at this ridiculous plant which didn't show any sign of progress, I actually got fed up.

Then as if to say, "Don't give up on me yet", the smaller plant bloomed one flower. It was the most interesting flower I have ever seen.

That rekindled my interest in caring for this plant. Today the two plants have flourished and taken over the entire clothesline.

It has become the envy of one of my neighbors, who chopped down his tree when it didn't bear fruit. But I have to restrain myself from getting too proud.

After all, I only gave it H20.

Aftermath: Accident

Thoughts to Ponder: Found this dead bird in my garden today. Such a morbid picture yet I find myself relating to it. I mean, no matter how high you fly or how low you stand, you might just die a lonely and meaningless death. On another note, I find myself worrying about avian flu.

It's been 2 days since I had that stupid accident.

Actually I've been having a pretty hectic schedule lately. Church stuff. Work stuff. Planning for travel. Planning for meetings with friends. Worrying about this and that. Running around. I think my 'RAM' is almost full.

I guess this is what they call pushing your limits. Guess it made me tired and careless. But I'm thankful though. I mean, it could have been worse. I could have hit something or someone. *Shudder*

But I've been feeling kinda empty and dispirited since then. My damaged car still sits unrepaired. Still runs though. I have little mood to drive other than for work and to eat.

Suddenly, I feel very detached from this world and nothing seems to make sense anymore. For the first time, my mind resonates with my heart, "Life is meaningless". I've been trying quite hard to prep myself up. At times, it seems I'm demanding for attention but then I'm not so sure.

I hope I snap out of this stupor soon.